successful people loose sleep to dream up a reality

There's a moment where everything stands still. The sort of stillness that allows one to think, to breathe, to prepare for their next leap whether their opponent life is ready. This last year has been that moment for me on many, many occasions. Unfortunately about a year ago I took trip down a flight a stairs and it halted my ability to work where I was part-time. Fortunately there's no major obvious damage,but there is a lingering issue that keeps up on a daily basis. Now I'm not the young woman who will fret, who will not find a way to survive because that's who I am. Even when traveling through my distorted tribulations in the back of my mind there was always a plan to fix the issue. So many things swirled out of my "control" and many worries piled up and then one morning I woke up and just let go. I decided that since working in entertainment was as part time of a job for me as the other one was, I dove straight in. Entertaining is my passion, it is my dream. I am a reticent individual however being on the stage, being in front of a camera brings out the ham in me and I want to use my happiness to bring to others. There are many abstract humanitarian concepts floating in the abyss of my mind to help others. I'm young and I am old all at once. I have seen, done, and will continue to do a lot of things. It is from observing others including myself, it's from not having that fuels my energy to give to another. I once was told that perhaps my heart was too big, I'd like to agree because if I didn't I wouldn't bother with everything I have planned. The entertainment field began to expand for me like a path laid out in front of me and I walked the road. At first the tree's scared me, the snaps of twigs around me startled me but then I began to realize this is the path I was looking for. I began booking more and more jobs, in the beginning it was mostly background work which for someone who walks with a cane is wonderful because you get to sit and eat all day and be paid.

I was allowed to join the union of my craft and that opened up more and more for me. In the mean time battling insurances, doctors, my health and carrying on like a wayward son I created my own therapy to semi-fix the problem until it could be completely solved. My own exercises to rebuild my lost muscle and weight and I am recovering, not as fast as I would like but I am nonetheless recovering. There have been a few big offers in the light at the end of the tunnel calling me and I am making my way there. I was signed to 4 modeling agencies all within a short time frame this year and it shocked me to be with them all. Then as fate would have it a I met a wonderful man from the Ukraine and he is a fabulous photographer. The type of human being with such vim and happiness oozing from his pores it's amazing. I've had the opportunity to meet his significant other and become friends.

In the mist of moving on, and carrying forward I began running into people left and right on the most oddest of times that's been propelling me a little more ahead and little more ahead. And as I continue to feel the breeze on my face and in hale, it's calming. It's that same stillness when everything around you is moving utterly fast and yet some how you are moving faster than it because it all seems so clear. I recently signed up with a big agency out in the northwest and they have a few big auditions lined up already for me and let me tell you I'm psyched! I've been traveling and bunking at so many places from auditions to jobs back and forth just so I can touch my face a bit to the sunlight, while dealing with a hefty bit on the other end. I am not perturbed or depressed just highly accepting. And every day slowly I feel better and healthier. I don't break easily that's for sure. I have been apart of a bunch of independent projects, now a theatre production, modeling jobs, voice-over (which is the most fun by the way) and mastering my linguistic skills.

Also unfortunately for benefits I've had to let go some personal and business associates but I do warn people that I run with scissors and if you become hostile, threatening, an issue, a headache, steal, lie, take something or have nothing but ill intentions underneath it all for me then you must go. I've gotten complaints my whole life about cutting people out but I intend to lead a life with less stress and if you are stressful and not an obligation I don't see why I have to deal with you. From complaints to small cowardice I decided to let some people go and cut my losses whether its money or a friendship. I wish everyone well, happiness, wealth and a fantastic long life I just don't really plan to be apart of it. That doesn't mean I will be rude when in contact, it just simply means I won't care and carry on. Time doesn't stop for anyone and neither do I.

It's been quite the ride and yet I know of so much more on it's way that I am not at liberty to discuss yet but nonetheless it's there. Soon my tribulations, my distress, my path to freedom, to the light, to the sun will be laid out in front of me and I am more than ready to propel forward. I have a lot of work to do, and it's already begun. And quite frankly I know for a fact that it's not the end, because in the end I know it's going to be alright and if it's not alright then it means that it's not the end.

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