I look around me and casually I see the arrogant and the shamed roaming amonst each other in their tiny worlds. They often stay to themselves unless necessary, including if they need to interract. Some are far more fragile to callow events than others are. And some are rather considered to be cruel and unfair. However way you look at it, there is no winning team. Many have had the golden moments of holding onto some weak ambition to become what they aspired to be. Many also do not make it to their "Utopia" of success. Due to their lack of ambition or talent if you will, they grow to be miserable and shallow creatins that roam this stage of life. Now not everyone is caught in this torpid lifestyle but it is quite infectious. This disease suffuses it's way through society and replicates faster than rabbits mating. I go to work and I watch how two-faced everyone is with each other and yet how vunerable they all really stand. A woman complained to a supervisor of ours that I was anti-social because I did not say hello to her in the morning in the locker room. Well if I am to argue from the callow point "You saw me and you did not speak!", but all puerile thinking to the side I did not care. I was not phased if she said hello and good morning to me or not. I was still happy and enjoying what was given to me. There are a few individuals like myself who can enjoy what was given as well as strive for more, unfortunately I do not meet a lot of individuals like myself. However because of the woman's petty arguement and professional complaint I was not surprised on how far someone would go to feel special, to feel important by this consistent recognition or cheap plausible gifts taken or given. My day was good because I felt good. I worked out in the morning and I enjoyed the rising of the sun, not because anyone spoke to me, nor do I need it or look for it. The only thing that disrupts me is when I come across childish individuals like this. I say childish with as much emphasis on "Child" as I can in writing, to complain to a supervisor and to refuse to train me even though you have been instructed to do so (oh and I mean refuse like whining and yelling like a child) well quite frankly I find it to be a bit over the top should I dare say? I look at these people and they all have something in common, misery and boy do we know that type of energy loves some company. The more I work here and study the people, the more I realize why I always stay away from people. They are these walking miserable body capules filled with immense energy just waiting to explode or implode off to share how someone treated them. When I see how weak they are I do find myself tempted to play them as a doctor does with organs, but with good self control I smile...but it is not a safe smile for them. However when I look at them, I see they are everything I could never be. I could never the light of another human being and if I did it would not be everyone within my hand reach. I could never own a decent job and complain about having decent pay, sure I am no millionaire but it is not that hard to save money. I could never work so hard to make a nice person miserable because I hate my life that much that I must share it. Do I toy with people? Yes, but only honestly if provoked and even then it will be small things because why cut the head off so quickly when I have so much more land to play with. They love playing the 2 face card like they are from Batman, however they are nothing more than mere sheep with glass for wool. I see how they are, I see how they think and I see it sad for a few and stupid for others. How can so many people work so hard at disrespecting another individual? One thing if it is an accident but I have seen the effort put in. I also see pure imbeciles working a simple job and some how making it hard. All of these people hit all types of ages and I find it really sad. I admit though the more I watch people so intently the more I wonder how less human I can really be at times. A girl burned her hand and I only asked once "are you ok?" and she told me "yes", her answer was good enough for me. However I noticed 5 people asking her at least 5-7 times each the same redundant question over and over, and of course receiving the same answer. Or I smile at the clients and I work hard to appear friendly and as human like as possible, and there is a complaint I do not smile enough at my co-workers. If I am not being rude to you then there is no problem. I had these idiots give me an example of how to smile and I simply said "I do smile at the clients" and curved my lips no teeth into a cheap smile. Oh they did not like that very much. However it seems wanting to keep to myself is a lot to ask for these days and appearing anti-social is like being the anti-christ. All because these people swell up in misery and soak in it like the sun's warmth I felt this morning. They live in their desperate empathy because they did not achieve or constantly need. It is so sad...or is it more sad that at the end of the day I still sleep the same way I did the day before without another care in the world?
