So its been forever

Ok I got to be apart of a cool film, with credits called Cornstarch Gizmo. Fortunate for me they finished the movie then was told to add scenes, and moi was there for it. So they want me back again and Astro is a real lively character you enjoy his presence you know what I mean? But I am going back to filming and have an additional role to cover for credit that means up on my imdb.com there will be another name under my belt. It feels good.

I also have a new photo shoot coming up because I work too much and my career has to start picking up, I can't wait forever adjusting my career for my job, its the other way around.

Now I auditioned for an HBO show 2 years ago for the "Wire", unfortunately I did not get it but I made an impression enough that he remembered me for 2 modeling expos coming up and 2 feature films they want to slip me in. 2 years ago I was a different person, I wasn't who I naturally, which is who I am becoming again lol as time passes. I'll always remain to be reticent but underneath it all an empathetic smartass who likes to feel alive. I love adventures whether the journey is roaming New York City's shadows or if its mastering something, its a journey...everything you do.

Now I'm also going to be attending school again this summer, yeah I know work, school then Model but I can multitask very fine thank you very much =D but back to school once again and what I am going to graduate with as in a Major I have no friggin wiggin clue. But I do know linguistics will always have a soft spot for me, so that will be a minor.

I've spent all month coming up with corny ways to express my love for my new boyfriend for Feb, and its weird because I hate v-day. No its not some cheap analytical story behind it to my psyche. I've just never cared for it. You love me then you show it. don't do it as some national obligation, oh please blow me come on. If you see something that you want to do for me, with me it doesnt matter just don't blow a lot of cash. I explain that to all of my boyfriends, because quite frankly prior to my current boyfriend, my most fun date was when I was babysitting someone's kid and we all went to McDonalds and played in the ball pit. So much dam fun. And yeah thats it, and that was the last bit of real fun we ever had as a couple....ahhhhh so anyways I'm not into it. But here comes ......Aganju is what I'll call him....so he shows up helps me publish my first 2 books and now working on the 3rd. Studying a foreign language (Japanese) so he can study with me (this is a biggie for me because I've done it before and there were ahem not so good aftermath for no reason). He smiles when he see's me, when I say smile he stares...he practically stalks me lol well we're dating now so I guess no more climbing up to my window JUST KIDDING!!!

but anyways, I've grown up in an interesting house hold so love isn't a cup of tea I see often drank of purity. So I got this great guy, and its the first happiest and healthiest relationship I've ever been in. Sure we've had spazzs but no real fighting, what I consider fighting is the stuff I've encountered before and the dumb things my ex's had did where you can tell thinking about it before wasn't a specialty. However I get bitchy, I get really moody, cranky anything you name it....when I go too long without seeing him. I don't know why, because after a few months I can love you, I'll still love you just the same abut there will be that day where in my head...I love you but get away from me. Going out with my best friend before ummmmm lets call her Oya, and being with her is wonderful she's a ton of fun around, but I'd forget all about my boyfriend until it was time to go back to them oh ok, back to the guy I love but we'll never work out our problems or what fight will we have tonight?

And its small, its simple but it has a theme all just for him. I hope he likes it especially on the 14th, I'm going all out considering I am out of practice. You'd think I wouldn't be, but when you go out of your way for someone and they complain how cheap everything is because they wanted expensive materials you stop doing things.

well let's see, that it so far. just have to finish my 3rd book and, wish me luck for this whole projects coming up left and right.

I must be the best whore out there, gotta make mama proud lol

Cadma

Vik

My Vik is who I have to thank about this.
I often misplace things on the web lol, and I googled my name so I can find the site I signed up for. And I found my book all over the place, it's a pleasant feeling to have.

I never cared much for publishing, but this is working in favor.

Good to see my work out there

hip hopping toddler

omg isnt he just the cutest dancing awwwwww

=D

So before my year ended I got to fully play out a part as a prostitute. -_- lol, mother would be so proud. It was interesting having to be half naked (lingerie is my limit) and be "intimate" with another person. I simply thought of my boyfriend but it just felt weird. As I continue, seriously I can't wait to pay for body doubles. I'm a bit picky on who gets to touch me, if I don't want to be touched I usually slide out of the way. But this is part of the job right? Well anyways, it was an interesting experience and adds a lot more to my plate.

My modeling is more focused and is falling more into place. After you let go of the excess baggage and feel free to dream, suddenly your back to who you are again.

I had a tough year of 2009. I know for those in my "personal" life there are many assumptions but very few, select few know the truth. It's amazing to be a house full of people and no one knows a thing but the friend who was just a visitor but paid close attention. Well I have left a big chunk of history behind myself, for the sake of a better me. A healthier me. I have improved much on my music and have quite the surprise for my boyfriend that I hope he likes. He likes, in fact he appreciates a lot. This one falls deeply with me.

Well its 2010, and things are falling right where they need to. Just a little bit of time and more will glow and more will flow for this little butterfly