survey

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	chantal
Birthday:	nov. 2nd
Birthplace:	bronx, ny
Current Location:	queens, ny
Eye Color:	dark brown
Hair Color:	dark brown/black
Height:	5'7"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	righty
Your Heritage:	omg...black, chinese, polish, cherokee & Wicomico Native American Indian
&..39;Your Weakness:'	my heat, I lend it out too much aveces
Your Fears:	not achieving anything
Your Perfect Pizza:	extra cheese and lasagna
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	the movie role I am applying for
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	^^
Thoughts First Waking Up:	get up....get ur ass up...you know you have to get up....GET UP!!!!
Your Best Physical Feature:	I have no idea
Your Bedtime:	whenever I feel like it
Your Most Missed Memory:	xmas time, an actual nice xmas
Pepsi or Coke:	coke screw the peps!
MacDonalds or Burger King:	taco bell if i have to go with fast food
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	....i like hot tea more than Ice
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla hell yeah!
Cappuccino or Coffee:	neither, tea....but I have tried latte's their ok
Do you Smoke:	use to every now and then
Do you Swear:	omg I can out do a sailor
Do you Sing:	claro hence my career choice
Do you Shower Daily:	ill of course i do
Do you want to get Married:	I think of it but I dont think I am wife material
Do you believe in yourself:	depends on what
Do you get Motion Sickness:
Do you think you are Attractive:	I'm ok
Are you a Health Freak:	nope
Do you get along with your Parents:	sure....
Do you like Thunderstorms:	omg yes, they are the best forhorror fest and uh ahem yeah horrorfest only ^_*
Do you play an Instrument:	acoustic guitar, keyboard, vibraphone, vocals, chinese flute
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	.......yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	i want to, i miss it -_-
In the past month have you been on Stage:	nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	omg never, and the way man kind pollutes this place oh yeah lts get nakey
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	yes but I'm not I wouldnt know how to be sexy seriously
Ever been Beaten up:	nope
Ever Shoplifted:	I'm not answering
How do you want to Die:	well gee, is ths gonna be definitecause if i go in a ball of flames screaming down a pit to see Satan and its not what I wanted (in my sleep) then we are going to have a problem
What country would you most like to Visit:	England, Italy omg Italy!!
In a Boy/Girl..
Favorite Eye Color:	green
Favorite Hair Color:	doesnt matter
Short or Long Hair:	ummm doesnt matter
Height:	around mine, no midgets no giants fit me!!
Weight:	idc
Best Clothing Style:	r u dressed in pubic? yes then Idc...at home I ask for birthday suits lmao
Number of Drugs I have taken:	neve
Number of CDs I own:	idont want to count hat high
Number of Piercings:	1
Number of Tattoos:	3 so far
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	1, and that was hurting someone i didnt take seriously
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Afraid

I admit I fear being happy. To me happiness is the adventure you seek only to find some chimerical fabric of lies to be intertwined in. I feel like I am suppose to feel a certain way that I do not. I have absconded far enough to feel free. I taste the liberty of not being obligated to perform tricks and trades. I am a patient woman, too patient some say. Maybe I flow too much like water instead of whirlpooling my enemies. However, I am curious. Maybe too curious. Someone who has not changed. Someone who has been a friend. Someone who leaves an unique trademark smile upon my face. Is it too soon to wonder?

Is it too soon to feel free?
Happy?
Relief?
Because I know for a fact they do not miss me so why should I waste time missing them?

love...a burning flame...it makes a fiery ring

Internal Nescience...you make an ass of yourself by assuming

I have been accussed of many things. However when someone tells me they speak their mind, they will always be straightforward with me I expect them to. Not do it until it pleases them. Normally I would not be stressed and would have said "Fuck It" by now, but no...this matters to me. All the puerile actions I can push to the side and say "What is going on?" "Why are you reacting to me like thi?". Instead of hearing a lucid answer, I am receiving rebarbative comments. I can understand if someone does not agree with my personal choices, however to act the way they have been acting is taking a heavy toll on our friendship. Yet regardless of the moetic (my word) tirade, I am willing but they are not.

It took them 2 minutes to decide what they thought, without giving my concept a chance. My decision a chance. Without seeing something through my eyes for once and shot everything down like guns to a dove. Nothing has changed at all and because there is something they do not agree with, they react to me with such callow and mendacious mannerisms.

I can feel my choler rising when I think of it, because in the process I am loosing a friend. All because they do not agree with me about somthing that is my personal choice, like they have ever agreed to everything about my life before and in my time of need of just support and nothing more. Simply knowing they are there for me, the rugs is pulled beneath me.

What is even more stupid is, that even if things are "amended" I am not ignorant enough to not be able to acknowledge the fact that our this friendship will no longer stand the way it once did. It wlll not flourish. It will wither and slowly become this factictious platonic relationship. And even I can admit that hurts.

Another friend, who pushes me away for no reason. If I am not wanted, I leave and instead of saying go away they rather drag me through this.

It's a shame, I liked everything the way it was and it won't ever be the same. It will always linger at this nadir time era between us.

Life leads down some odd paths

Many changes have been abrupt for me and my need to treat all like a puzzle is not assisting me as well as it should. Sometimes I simply want to know even if I want to let go. I have been well aggravated with additional intricate delicacies like sour candy in a sweet dish bowl. Let's hope things change

Domestic Violence

I am in full support of Keira Knightley's domestic abuse. The video entails a tragic lifestyle, that not only women but men and children experience on a daily schedule. However speaking about what happens is what is hidden. People fear telling another person about what happens to them and it is sad. so I am re-posting this youtube.com video for today.



As for anything else, I am currently preparing myself for a very important supportting role and I must perfect what is to come. Wish me luck ^^