November

Since my last entry, I have been working twice if not providing triple the amount of effort to move forward. I have always been ambitious, however at times obstacles remain in my driveway. I have had a large number of photoshoots and I am consistently improving. I am reciprocating feedback which is phenomenal, but I have always been a perfectionist. Behind closed doors all I do is practice all day and all night especially when applicable. My reticent behavior allows me to lock myself away days at a time and never see sunlight. I remember looking back as far as 1991 or 1992 when my mother introduced me to modeling. I initially was apart of a pageant and my mother was proud before I could even enter, she was confident I would win. However unfortunately my pageant was at the world trade center....the first time it was bombed. It did not discourage me but I enjoyed studying and reading and video taping myself doing performances. My life has taken some interesting turns on the road so I have been very distracted from goals. Unfortunately age can hinder a career, especially this career.

I am back in the mind set I was in as a child, thinking of how to improve and always continue to be better. My mother raised me well. She raised me to continue trying, especially if it was to make me happy. She only wants to see that vim light from my smile because I enjoy what I am doing. I thank her for many things, including her vocal training, model training, and inordinate studying habits that stay with me until this day. It is because of her, why I bother to try for anything at all.

I do not think I am too humble, because I feel there's too much for improvement and now that I see the ball rolling, I'm ready for the hill.

October I had the opportunity to model for Framesi Hair Products for a hair show and I was ecstatic. I met so many girls and saw so many products...I got to play with and use I had so much working there. Although at first you're sitting around waiting with the other girls to finish hair and make up so you can have your shot, it is still a lot of fun. I was paid working a job that I enjoyed as opposed to the day job.

I have also met some great photographers and most recently it was Thomas Churchwell, who is very funky and wicked. I enjoyed the shoot even though my mind was traveling beyond the borders, we still provided a fun shoot and I would like to shoot with him again. I have some concepts already to do for christmas.

Next year I am so psyched to be traveling out to Georgia for a week to perform in a theatre production, so I have been spending every moment I get to practice my stage combat lessons. I feel this is going to be such a fantastic memory to have, I am proud to do it regardless of the outcome.

Well this is just a basic update honestly and I am going to keep as facile as possible.

I am still working on this perpetual task of finishing my novel but like most writers....I'm picky.

Cadma