"There is always someone out there doing worse than you" a common adage I would hear over the years as a child into young adulthood. I often wondered where did the bottom really begin or if it truly mattered to how much a person can handle what their tenebrous life throws at them? I have been gravid with these torpid approaches to my life. I slowed down to meditate on my next "Chess" move and I admit I have been sitting afar more than I should have. I gained this laggard pace because I felt as if I had been struck by lightening. I needed to repair the damage that was done so I would not loose that ebullient ambition I always have. It has been 2 years and I feel more ready. I am not sure if I am moving because I am fully healed or strong enough to move. I feel realistic and jovial all at once and continue on about my way. However I can not afford to stop again. I have a few things I must do before I die.
This year feels different. I am not "high" on spirituality but something feels different. Maybe the healed wounds and picked scabs or my ambition making me stand before I should but who knows. Either it feels good to be out of my shell once again, but that is me the ever changing butterfly lol
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